Hey God , it's me again . I am in the train again . I am feeling it again. God why ? Pls tell me why ? The devil attacking ? He got a foothold on me ? he is not suppose to right ? The day I Receive Jesus as my Lord and savior . No curse or devil have anything against me ! I am free again . But why do I feel so trap now ? How can I ever be free again ? I cannot recall the days that I sat in train without fear . I squeeze in train without fear . My mood is so disturb these days . No longer Joyful , no longer peaceful . When the door close , I feel it's gonna close forever , but is it true ? No it's not . It's gonna open in another stop . If not i will walk on tracks . The train is slow , does it mean it's not moving ? No . So what is it is not moving ? I don't know . I forgot to read bible today . Will u bless me if I never read bible ? Will u still be faithful and protect me ? Am I protected now ? Feel so valuable now . Still no words of encouragement from you God . No one tell me in the face . Or is it I need to have faith ? Just like Thomas , once I see ur "hand" that is not faith ? My health is weird . It seems like it is going a downward slope . I still got 8 stops to go . Already pass 5 stops . Feels ok while writing this letter to You. Should I go over to P.S W side ? Or should I stay in FC? now may have someone taking me in FC . How ? I should visit N this coming Friday .. In the nam of Jesus , I reject any foothold or curse that the devil have on me . I reject fear towards this . I declare I will only fear Lord Jesus . I will only please Lord Jesus . ! In Jesus almighty named pray . Amen !