hi Jesus , just feel like writing a letter to you again. haiz. cannot really remember whats the date that my grandma pass away. it think its around 2-3 months time. i still miss her from time to time..yesterday was her bday . actually we should be preparing to go some resturant and celebrate..but this year we got no chance..i really hope the day i go heaven i can see her again. i ask her if she wanna receive YOU before she die. i really hope in her heart she said yes. God maybe u want to give me a sign tell me she is with You? Another than this. i also wanna tell you ( i think u already know) , about my psy problem . the space restricted problem. nowdays i cannto even take MRT(haha so funny i wanna laugh at myself) take lift also got problem. and the worst , airplane. i cant take too..i got this FEAR that i cant remove. this is so funny. i am a psy nurse in a psy ward . and i myself got this psy problem, dunnoe if it is consider a psy problem or not..but i felt it is.at least my girlfren is very supportive over this..Thank you God for giving her to me.God are you trying to tell me something regarding this fear? becoz i remmeber in the bible u wont let the devil touch Your people unless u allow.. is it a trial for me? am i suppose to learn something? God pls tell me in the face can? nowdays i cant hear from u.i felt so far away from u. and my marriage .how GOd? what am i suppose to do? and my sins. haiz. God i feel so selfish when i write this letter to you..everytime i got problem than i come to you. Oh ya , just wanna tell you ( i know You know already) that i am serving the kids again :) haha they r not kids anymore. but thank you God for letting me serve again this 2 month..pls also let me know what am i going to do next..
Lord in the name of JESUS , i pray that you will read this letter. i know u miss me Lord.. i just wanna tell You , i miss those time that i had a close relationship with You too.. That kind of Faith and Believe in YOU. Lord thank you Lord , for never fail to hear my prayer and listen to my nags. Thank you JESUS , in JESUS name i pray. AMEN!
For summary God
1.i still miss my grandma
2.my fear, Lord pls help me
3.marriage . how?
4.serving.whats nexT?
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