Hi Jesus

hi Jesus , just feel like writing a letter to you again. haiz. cannot really remember whats the date that my grandma pass away. it think its around 2-3 months time. i still miss her from time to time..yesterday was her bday . actually we should be preparing to go some resturant and celebrate..but this year we got no chance..i really hope the day i go heaven i can see her again. i ask her if she wanna receive YOU before she die. i really hope in her heart she said yes. God maybe u want to give me a sign tell me she is with You? Another than this. i also wanna tell you ( i think u already know) , about my psy problem . the space restricted problem. nowdays i cannto even take MRT(haha so funny i wanna laugh at myself) take lift also got problem. and the worst , airplane. i cant take too..i got this FEAR that i cant remove. this is so funny. i am a psy nurse in a psy ward . and i myself got this psy problem, dunnoe if it is consider a psy problem or not..but i felt it is.at least my girlfren is very supportive over this..Thank you God for giving her to me.God are you trying to tell me something regarding this fear? becoz i remmeber in the bible u wont let the devil touch Your people unless u allow.. is it a trial for me? am i suppose to learn something? God pls tell me in the face can? nowdays i cant hear from u.i felt so far away from u. and my marriage .how GOd? what am i suppose to do? and my sins. haiz. God i feel so selfish when i write this letter to you..everytime i got problem than i come to you. Oh ya , just wanna tell you ( i know You know already) that i am serving the kids again :) haha they r not kids anymore. but thank you God for letting me serve again this 2 month..pls also let me know what am i going to do next..
Lord in the name of JESUS , i pray that you will read this letter. i know u miss me Lord.. i just wanna tell You , i miss those time that i had a close relationship with You too.. That kind of Faith and Believe in YOU. Lord thank you Lord , for never fail to hear my prayer and listen to my nags. Thank you JESUS , in JESUS name i pray. AMEN!

For summary God
1.i still miss my grandma
2.my fear, Lord pls help me
3.marriage . how?
4.serving.whats nexT?

Work now

Hey God just wanna praise u and thank u for all ur blessing!! Really felt very bless ! Btw God I just pray that u will bless me with wisdom to help the ED PPL in my ward . Spoke to them for the pass few day felt that they really need Your help God . No treatment or any medication can help them except u . In the name of Jesus I pray that Lord u will deliver them from this curse !! Words cannot explain how thankful I'm now . But God u can see my heart rit? God I also wanna pray that u will forgive my sins ! Help me see these ppl thru Jesus's eyes , teach ,me Lord Your way to help them . Thank u Lord Jesus , in Jesus name I pray ! Amen !

One year pass

One year pass already , it's been long since I last blogged . No news means good news. I guess . Work have been alot better nowadays . Ppl in the wd use to see me as someone slow , cannot make it and stupid . After one year I prove them all wrong . Of coz have to thank God for it . Coz deep down in my heart I know that only my almighty Jesus can do these. Work is getting more and more stable each day . But my relationship between me and God still not good . Lord Jesus this is my prayer , hear me . Father in heaven, I miss u . My heart longs to be with u, my sprit and soul hungry for u . But my flesh overcome all these longing and hunger . I am sorry Lord that I sin against u . Forgot me God , how can I get close to u once again . Send angels to help me Lord , send help to me Lord , let my longing and hunger for u Lord Jesus ,defeat my flesh . I love u Jesus . Jesus help me and my girlfriend in our daily work and walk with u . Bless us , keep us away from harm . Let me and ivy get close to u  . Hear my cry Lord , answer my prayer . In Jesus name I pray . Amen .
God hope u r reading my blog now . Going to start my first nite today . Got very heavy workload today . But its ok , Becoz I know Jesus is with me!