Year 2024

 Hi Lord Jesus . I am here once again . Now I am a nurse manager . Everything seems to be get better . Be it pay , position , work . Family.  I am so blessed. Thank you . There were many problems,  trials,  temptation.  But You kept me safe . Continue to bless me and my family God. I remember years ago ps Eugene prayed and saw me building a big tree to house kids and ppl. God I am still thinking how can I make this happen ? Hahaha I don't know . Looking back since the day I started this blog . I am really blessed . 

Help me lord Jesus . Thank u ! 

Time flies

 Hi Jesus . My God and my Lord .  time flies soooo fast . Now already 2020 . So many things happen ! I am here to update u again .

Thank you for taking care of me for the past many years . Now I got 3 lovely kids blessed by you .

Chariss Ng yuting 

Hansel Ng yipeng 

Josie Ng Yuyun 

I am finishing my master soon too ! With the help of ivy . 

Can’t believe things went so smoothly for the past years 

Strangely now I have car / house / wife / kids / career / education but I dun seems to be happy with my life . The things I am going through now is weird . This temptation is killing me God . I dun think I am ready for this trial , please God give me strength to resist it . Or not please remove it from my life . I know you gave us the freedom of choice . But God please teach me how Jesus have been tempted and resist it successfully . 

Anyway I am still very amazed how you have blessed me and protect me for the past few years . Indeed God u are the God of wonders :) 

! I hope the next time I update You . It’s good news . Thank you Lord Jesus ! Love U.. 

Cell group

Write down
Complains: why is my health like that ? Am I being punish ?
I am too busy to serve You . I need time for myself ?
God ,u must have known by now these r the commen thoughts that I have in my mind from time to time . Just wondering my heart of serving ? Is it contract base or convent base ? If it is coverent  base why was I complaining ? Why was I lazy ? Why was I calcultive ? Why do I feel that I did a lot ? Even until today ? . Lord Jesus I am sorry . Today I confess infront of u . Than how Lord will I have a pure and correct heart of serving ? When Lord will i put down all I have and follow you ? Teach me Lord your ways . I wonder if U tell me what to do . Will I dare to do it ? Will I be willing to do it ? Am I ready to do it .? Lord Jesus , I am not sure . Do I deserve whatever I am having now ? Today this cell group kept me thinking about these.. God are you reminding me ? Are you telling me what  to do ?  The bottom thing I wanna say is . Lord Jesus I still love you!

Teach me

Lord , pls teach me how to depend on you more . That I will pray before I do everything . To give thanks in everything that had happen . Teach me Lord to find joy in everything I Do. Be it study , relationship , test , exam . Teach me Lord the real joy that is from you . Prepare the path before me Lord , so that I can walk behide You , and I know I will be safe . Teach me Lord to be more like You . That I will bless the people around me in Your nAme . That I will glorify Your name . In Jesus name I pray , Amen . :)

8 day of fast

Dear Lord Jesus , pass 5 day was extreme stressful . Praise You and Thank You Lord for ivy . Indeed a gift from you Lord . Something that I dun earn and dun deserve it . But Lord u bless me with it . I wanna cont to fast from game Lord . Weekend is the worst time . Struggle the Most !!!! Lord I wanna show you I am serious . I am serious about getting back to you , althought I dun feel u much . I gonna keep trying . I wanna chase after you . I am serious about getting my health right . I am serious about getting my r/s with ivy right before you . I am serious about doing well in my study and work .. All to glorify You . I will give praise to you Lord ! I want to make a different in others life with Your help , in Your name . Even when I am typing this letter to you Lord . My stomach felt so much better . Thanks You Lord Jesus .

Day 1

First day of the 40 day of fast n pray . God remind me again to focus on him . To focus on my relationship with God . In tc today cannot really focus on God and prayer . Keep thinking about my assigment .I hope wed when I go tc I will do better . Haiz . But at least I manage to fast from game . Did not play any game :) God pls cont to watch over me and ivy . Thank you Lord , in Jesus name I pray . Amen !

1 Day before 40 day of prayer and fast

Today is the first day before 40 day fasting and praying . God r u kicking my butt and telling me to move ? Becoz on Friday I found out that I failed a test that is suppose to be so easy . My pride is so hurt. I guess when the bible say God will humbled u..it's very true.. I always tot I am good in it .. Lol . I reliase without u God . I am still nothing . Tested and proven .i decide to fast from game from TML onwards . I know I can do it . So what should I pray for ? Today I went church with a very heavy heart . I cannot even make myself clap during worship . I can't worship . I don't know why. . But when ps khong talk abt faithfulness and gave the alter call . I cannot control but tear , and I went down . Telling God to renew me , and make me faithful once again . God as my previous entry u know my life got afew problem right now. Big and small . My health , this abdominal pain , mental health problem . My gf' health . My school resulT. All these God I want to lift up to u , and just faithfully go Tc and pray and fast . Rain or shine , light or dark . God I wanna go tc and pray. God I just wanna say thank You for Your faithfulness , even when I am unfaithful . I love You Jesus !! In Jesus name I pray . Amen !! PRAYER POINT 1.Coming back to God as a faithful son of God 2.health (both mental and the physical ) 3.Relationship with ivy lift up to God 4.school work . To learn how to rely on God in all things.